( there's no way magnus will ever let go of alec again. he thought he had to, even knowing he was being manipulated by the queen, thought that to keep his people safe he had to sacrifice the one thing that made him feel happier than he could ever remember being. it made sense, in a strange sort of way. when had magnus been allowed anything so worthwhile?
he's not going anywhere. now he would rather work to be a good leader with alec at his side. he's better that way. alec makes him stronger. his fears stem from so much of his life being taught he wasn't worth it, that he was a monster. not from any doubt about his feelings for alec, now alec's feelings for him.
he wants to be better. he doesn't want to be afraid. he wants to keep feeling alec's steady heartbeat beneath his hand and give no thought to the voices of anyone that came before, of other shadowhunters, of history. he's loved by alec. and he loves alec back. that's a wonderful thing meant to be treasured and protected. )
Words don't feel like they're enough, do they? ( his smile is shy and almost conspiratorial. it means me too, i understand, it's the same for me. ) We'll just have to keep showing each other.
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he's not going anywhere. now he would rather work to be a good leader with alec at his side. he's better that way. alec makes him stronger. his fears stem from so much of his life being taught he wasn't worth it, that he was a monster. not from any doubt about his feelings for alec, now alec's feelings for him.
he wants to be better. he doesn't want to be afraid. he wants to keep feeling alec's steady heartbeat beneath his hand and give no thought to the voices of anyone that came before, of other shadowhunters, of history. he's loved by alec. and he loves alec back. that's a wonderful thing meant to be treasured and protected. )
Words don't feel like they're enough, do they? ( his smile is shy and almost conspiratorial. it means me too, i understand, it's the same for me. ) We'll just have to keep showing each other.