( magnus doesn't need to pulled much to get closer, already in the process of doing so. his attempt to get closer still (difficult; he'd a little sideways and turned at the middle and his knee presses against alec's leg) is halted by the kiss he requested.
it shouldn't feel so shocking, when he asked for it and expected it. it's not that he's taken by surprise, but that it's like a jolt that courses through him. like the very first time they kissed. some raw, powerful reaction to feel alec press his lips to his own, another language between them that conveys what words can't always.
so he kisses alec back, lips parted, tasting him and telling him what he couldn't say. it's too hard to tell alec he will be devastated when this ends, whether it be in 20 years or 60, that no amount of preparing for it could make it easier, that he's grateful for every minute they do get to have and have had so far, that he's grateful alec is there for him and supports him even at his lowest. grateful alec loves him still. and thankful to be allowed to love him back in turn. because he loves him more than he thought he could ever love someone. that distance between himself and everyone else? it's not there with alec. it's like he's part of him, of his life, in a way no one has ever been.
magnus' hand moves and his fingers curl into his hair by his ear and then magnus unfortunately has to gather his breath. not before he says part of what his lips were trying to say, though. ) I love you.
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it shouldn't feel so shocking, when he asked for it and expected it. it's not that he's taken by surprise, but that it's like a jolt that courses through him. like the very first time they kissed. some raw, powerful reaction to feel alec press his lips to his own, another language between them that conveys what words can't always.
so he kisses alec back, lips parted, tasting him and telling him what he couldn't say. it's too hard to tell alec he will be devastated when this ends, whether it be in 20 years or 60, that no amount of preparing for it could make it easier, that he's grateful for every minute they do get to have and have had so far, that he's grateful alec is there for him and supports him even at his lowest. grateful alec loves him still. and thankful to be allowed to love him back in turn. because he loves him more than he thought he could ever love someone. that distance between himself and everyone else? it's not there with alec. it's like he's part of him, of his life, in a way no one has ever been.
magnus' hand moves and his fingers curl into his hair by his ear and then magnus unfortunately has to gather his breath. not before he says part of what his lips were trying to say, though. ) I love you.