( He keeps his gaze fixed on Magnus, brows furrowed slightly. The question feels loaded. Like if he says the wrong thing, it’ll ruin everything. He’s not even sure what the right thing to say is, what Magnus is looking for. Magnus seems guarded but if Alec’s learned anything it’s that it’s best for him to be as honest as possible. )
At first it was hard. I felt like I was betraying my family by not being there. It’s like—it’s like that was another obligation. I’m a Shadowhunter, a Lightwood, that’s where I have to be to be a good Shadowhunter, a good son, a good parabatai.
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( He keeps his gaze fixed on Magnus, brows furrowed slightly. The question feels loaded. Like if he says the wrong thing, it’ll ruin everything. He’s not even sure what the right thing to say is, what Magnus is looking for. Magnus seems guarded but if Alec’s learned anything it’s that it’s best for him to be as honest as possible. )
At first it was hard. I felt like I was betraying my family by not being there. It’s like—it’s like that was another obligation. I’m a Shadowhunter, a Lightwood, that’s where I have to be to be a good Shadowhunter, a good son, a good parabatai.